Archive | June 2012

How Many Times Have You . . . . ?

How many times have you felt yourself shrink?

How many times have you made yourself small enough to fit into some role that you wanted no part of?

How many times have you kept your mouth shut when you wanted to scream loudly?

How many times have you handed over your right to make a decision to someone who didn’t have your best interests at heart?

How many times have you succumbed to an impulsive or addictive behavior rather than making a clear-minded choice?

How many times have you told yourself, “I can’t.  I’m not strong enough.  I can’t do this.  I’m not courageous or confident enough to be all that I desire to be.”

Every day we are confronted with hundreds of choices that either make us feel confident and strong, or rob us of the things we desire the most.  When we lack confidence, we feel unworthy of having what we want.  We are afraid of speaking the truth. We feel insecure about making decisions that will improve our lives.  We’re always waiting for someone else’s approval.

When we feel weak, helpless, or powerless, we lack the strength to ward off the thoughts of defeat, negativity, and fear that fill our minds and prevent us from moving forward and living our lives in harmony with our deepest desires and what is really in our hearts.

I recently read something that Graham Cooke wrote:

            “The enemy is miserable and wants to make you the same. Criticism, cynicism, sarcasm, complaining and moaning are all the worship language of Hell.”

To keep my mind at peace I simply need to focus and do what God has asked me to do:

            8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. Philippians 4:8-9 NIV

 The truth is, we are all born with a part of us that is determined and aggressive – an inner strength that we call upon when we fight the good fight – for our children and when we protect our families.

This can be the healthiest part of us – the part of us that has us go after something.  The part of us that should always be ready for combat, to be ready to win, and to engage in the battle with the dark thoughts the enemy loves to put in our minds – the lies, the deceit, the misinterpretations, the criticism, the sarcasm, the cynicism, the moaning and complaining, and even – shame.

There are times when we need the strength to say, “STOP.”  We need the courage to say, “I’m NOT going to listen to you.”, or “That’s not true.”

We need the backbone of a warrior if we are to be willing to go face-to-face with that which has made us feel weak, powerless, and unable to change.

This is true whether we’ve been battling a craving because we want sugar to make us feel loved, or fighting the impulse to spend when we need to save.  Maybe we need the strength to say “No” to alcohol, or pornography.  Maybe we need the strength of a warrior to set a boundary, to say, “No more!” or to stop enabling someone we love.

Or maybe the warrior is there to save our lives when we need to fight a disease of our own or of someone we love.  A warrior does not think:  “I’m a bad person if I don’t  .. . (you fill in the blank)”.  “What will they think of me?”  “If I say this or that I’ll be all alone and I won’t have any friends.”  Or, “I just have to lie down and die because I have a disease most everyone dies from anyway.”

A warrior will instead fight to be set free!

I don’t know about men, but most women have given up their true warrior in exchange for approval, for position, or for the illusion of safety.  There are also women who may feel that they are using the “warrior within” when, indeed, they are mistaken because there are times they are making decisions that come from a place of fear rather than a place of love.  Some make decisions of control and manipulation rather than make a decision from a place of compassion or understanding.

The warrior who comes forth from the ego (“It’s all about me”) is a warrior of weakness and control – intent on his/her own power, designed to protect some shattered self-image, rather than a warrior for the greater power of love.  A courageous warrior is a spiritual warrior, ready to fight for the Divine in all its expressions.

When you discover your own courageous warrior, I promise you that she will change your life!

I glad to say that I found my warrior within.  I took one year off of ministry of any kind so I could heal and get my head on straight.  During that year, God gave me a promise of better things to come.  He was giving me a priceless key for life and having it abundantly. When I went through some of the things I went through during that year, here is one of the things God told me:

“Sandra, I’ve chosen for you to endure; and where you have wept and thought it was “for nothing” you will come to find it has worked to ignite the brilliant, raging flame within you, the greatest treasure concerning darkness.  If you will allow Me, Your life will carry the very I AM.”

As I allowed God to work through me that year, I found that I excelled in my ministry.  I was able to overcome abandonment, rejection, divorce, a heartbreaking betrayal and several backstabbing wounds.  I transformed my fear, unworthiness, insecurity and powerlessness into courage, confidence and emotional freedom.

How?  By allowing the LORD to be my all-in-all so that the very I AM was carried in the DNA of my heart and soul.  More so, remembering that the Lord wanted:

  • To be my provider;
  • To sing love songs over me;
  • To dance with me;
  • To protect me;
  • To guard me;
  • To guide me
  • To love on me;
  • To restore me;
  • To heal me;
  • To replenish me.

I’m talking about God, El Shaddai, the One who is more than enough.  I was so focused on all that had gone wrong in my life, that I once again CHOSE to make God the centerpiece of my life.

When God is the centerpiece of your life, your warrior within can’t help but come out – no matter what kind of a situation you find yourself in.

Will you join me today in allowing the LORD to be your all-in-all so that the very I AM is carried in the DNA of your heart and soul . . . ready to fight any battle, and moreover, WIN!